29 December 2012

Auld Lang Syne - Lea Michele

One amazing song with the voice of Lea Michele I wanted to share before the year ends. I don't know what is so special and magic about New Year's Eve, but it is. New Year is a symbol to ending what's past and gone and starting fresh.

28 December 2012

Cloud Atlas

I happened to be intrigued by this movie. I never read the book. The trailer had some nice graphics, but the story was so confusing that it seemed like a nice movie to watch from the beginning. I can't say it's a great movie, but the concept is very good. I had to have wikipedia helping me out with all the characters and their worlds, but it was an exciting movie.
Now, I wish I could find the soundtrack somewhere. I mean, I don't know if the background theme music is the Cloud Atlas sextet, it sure was simple, yet absolutely beautiful. For now, here are some of my favourite quotes from the movie (not the book, since I haven't read it yet.)

"Truth is singular. Its versions are mistruths." Somni-451

"Our lives and our choices, each encounter, suggest a new potential direction. Yesterday my life was headed in one direction. Today, it is headed in another. Fear, belief, love, phenomena that determined the course of our lives. These forces begin long before we are born and continue long after we perish." Isaac Sachs

"What is any ocean but a multitude of drops?" Adam Ewing

"Our lives are not our own. From womb to tumb, we are bound to others, past and present; and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future" Somni-451

18 December 2012

Shin sekai yori

Just wanted to share a great piece of music, from a very entertaining Anime.


There are a number of things we take for granted. We think, talk and move. Being able to raise a hand or take a step is something we do without thinking, and yet, insignificant things like those are not granted. One of my hobbies, not my favorite one, but most definitely the most meaningful one is to find big wonders in small things in life.
Like I promised, I read "Warm bodies" before watching the movie. The book is a really soft and entertaining reading. The insight of a human that realized his limitations were a very interesting point. I mean, I talk, and think and move and remember. Not everybody does. My mother doesn't. She has a very serious health problem which sometimes makes her forget things, sometimes say unthinkable things. And many many times, she can't express what is on her mind. I mean, I can understand what she wants to say, but her words are randomly put together, not obey word order, many times suppressing a lot of syllables, or even words. She can't walk straight, she can't walk staircases. She gets dizzy if she turns her head in a normal speed. She can't write because she has no command of her right hand, and she used to be dexterous. 
Today, I am alive, not only I am alive, I'm also healthy (at least for now). I can think, talk, walk, write, eat all on my own. The miracle of wanting to move a finger and being able to do so is one thing worth to remember. The miracle of expressing ourselves and to be understood is something great.
Miracles do happen, daily. 

14 December 2012


Here was I looking at my failed experiment and thinking about what the hell I am doing here. I mean, this isn't exactly the kind of life I wanted.
If I truly ask myself what is my dream now, I wouldn't know what to say. If I think seriously about my career, then I'd say going to college was certainly a good decision. But then again, if I think about my personality and my happiness, I realize now that going to college is the worst thing I've done so far. Actually going to regular school is the worst thing I've done. Up until high school it was still somewhat ok, because I had enough free time to nurture other skills, but college is a whole different level.
Regular school and its system of teaching isn't up to date anymore. I can't say all, but most of the subjects I take doesn't help me to develop skills. We are taught stuff we could easily find on the internet (some times not so easily, but nonetheless, accessible). We are forced to memorize and memorize and memorize some more. I'm not saying it's not important. It is, but that's not all we can and should do. More than that, we should think and be creative.
Crisis? What? Be creative! Create jobs, create money flow!
But how to create?! College certainly doesn't help. I find myself getting dumber and dumber with all the pressure to memorize the content for each class and each exam. I want to create, I want to design and experiment, I want to write a novel, I want to draw and I want to build something, but I can't. Mostly because if I find some time among my busy day it would be to study and study some more. Sometimes, when my head complains, I give it a rest, which is well needed.
Don't blame us for being stupid. You are all to blame as well. Teachers who mock students for asking stupid questions or getting the wrong answers and the worst. My college teachers wonder why we don't participate in class. Gotta wonder, if you are wrong you are mocked once and twice and some more. If you ask something really obvious, you get mocked some more. And if you intervene to correct a mistake the teacher made, you get a poisonous remark of being stupid or the teacher would just ignore you or they would still say they were right. In rare occasions, I do see some teachers actually correcting their mistakes, but they a slowly starting to be an extinct species. My conclusion: Why bother?
Of course we are at fault too, for not seeking to create on our own even when the environment is not favorable. Weeds have a way of striving even in the most harsh conditions, and so should we. But then again, we need to have time for that. Society needs us all to be more creative, but the current society itself doesn't favor it, so that is definitely not an easy task.
I remember my first dream. I wanted to be a scientist, and I wanted to create a train that would go through the center of the earth to travel between the two hemispheres. I don't remember who was the adult that I first told this concept about. But the first thing that came out of that person was: That's impossible.
Tell me about it!!! If it was possible, I wouldn't want to create that, no?! Ok, it's impossible, but so were flying. Aircrafts were a mere dream five hundred years ago. The second person I told was a bit more receptive. He/she asked how I would do that. Of course back then I was somewhat around ten maybe, and I had no idea about physics, chemistry and lots of other stuff. Asking that to a ten year old would do much good. But asking how was a good start I think. Then, along the years I let it slide and forgot all about it, until I saw the movie Total Recall.
I had more than this one dream or idea, I had lots of them. I'm the kind of person who never runs out of ideas. But, life hasn't been very kind to me or I haven't been quite responsible to myself on letting those ideas come true. I'm sure tons of people are just like me, with ideas, but with no means or time to put them to use.
People do complain about our lack of creativity, specially teachers. But the thing is, we all complain and do nothing. That's our worst characteristic. It's almost (ALMOST) human nature.

All right, I failed. No worries. Next time I'll do better. Or, if I do realize that what I'm doing is not something I like, then I should just stop doing that. I'm not too late to change. We are never too late to change. I will let today sink in and set to find my new dream.
A dream, a goal, a target, a finishing line. And after that, the next one, and the one after that. Life is to be lived to the fullest. Because
yesterday has already gone and tomorrow has yet to come. But Today is a gift.

8 December 2012

Christmas spirit

Suddenly it's December and it's cold. I mean reaallly cold. And now, I feel like the christmas spirit is sinking in. This week, I went through a shopping spree. I bought a set of earrings, a nice pair of boots for myself and a pair of pants for my father. Also, I've been enjoying doing some origami in my spare time. My latest acquisition was a christmas ornament, but unfortunately, due to my lack of red paper, it turned out somewhat too ordinary. But none the less, I'm in high spirits, and I intend to keep it so for the week. Though I do know it is going to take a bit of an effort due to the upcoming lab exams.

2 December 2012

November gone

November was supposed to be my most hellish month every year, but this year, things are different. Turns out that December will be my hellish month for at least this year and the next. Meaning, November gone, December is here, and so I should be hella busy studying. I'm sort of freaking out right now because I'm going to have lab exams to which I have no idea how to pass. And, honestly, I can absolutely not flunk any of them. I've never ever flunked any exam before (except for the very much expected piano exam). And, after these many years of stuggling in the system and coping with it, I can't afford to flunk one now. My mind hasn't really been into the contents of my classes, which is the reason I'm stressing. I never tried to do so many things at the same time. It reminds me just a bit of my first two highschool years. The only difference is, now, even though I have roughly the same amount of things to do, I have to take more responsibility for them. So, the sun is shining like there's no tomorrow, and I shall go on my routine trip. I do hope that I can manage to have everything studied and known on time. But one thing is to hope, another thing is to do. Hoping eventually, if you are really really lucky, will get things done. But doing or at least getting started, will probably increase substantially the chances that things will go as we want them to go. Though change is way quicker than the plans, it's always good to know what we are doing and hold some cards on our hand.